about a year ago today was the day when we were washed out of our home. That morning, I vividly remember being ankle deep in water, standing in my living room, trying to do anything to save my house, though it was all for not. Who knew that three days of relatively nonstop rain would end up causing so much damage and despair for so many people?
well, here we are again. It has been one hell of a year and the nightmare may not be completely over, since even now we are still living in limbo.
it was odd that all of today it was pretty much misty and drizzling. It was a very cold day, and there is even a possibility of snow sometimes in the morning. To be honest, I loved the weather today.
I don't want to forever be weary of storms or large amounts of rain. I don't completely trust the weather, but its not something that activity goes out of it's way to cause destruction. It just does what it does.
I look forward to seeing what will happen next, and I still can't wait to have a home again, or at least live in a place that has more than just concrete floors.
Friday, September 12, 2014
Thursday, August 21, 2014
I thought that pain and truth were things that really mattered
what happened to make things come to this? Out if everything that has happened within the last year, o wasn't expecting to end up here, though it wasn't a surprise and I had time to plan.
within the last two months, we have lost two of our dear family pets. Their age and health did not leave them in the best condition, but they held on as long as they could.
on the other hand, my mother has had to see the frontlines of this disaster and has had to face it by herself. If I was able, I would love nothing more than to be close to her to help her through this emotionally taxing process. Even with the wonderful support she has been receiving from her friends, she still could use just the extra human to help out around the house.
she often compared what it was like dealing with two sickly cats to my work. However, since she was dealing with it at home, it was something that was around her constantly. I get the chance to go home and walk away from the stress and sadness, but she lived in it.
I am trying to think of the positives of the situation, though as painful as they may be, they do exist. When one door closes, another opens, right?
I just hope things settle down for a while for my mother, she could use a break.
life for all of us should return to some form of normalcy and stability in due time, but until then, all we can do is bide our time and hold out hope.
within the last two months, we have lost two of our dear family pets. Their age and health did not leave them in the best condition, but they held on as long as they could.
on the other hand, my mother has had to see the frontlines of this disaster and has had to face it by herself. If I was able, I would love nothing more than to be close to her to help her through this emotionally taxing process. Even with the wonderful support she has been receiving from her friends, she still could use just the extra human to help out around the house.
she often compared what it was like dealing with two sickly cats to my work. However, since she was dealing with it at home, it was something that was around her constantly. I get the chance to go home and walk away from the stress and sadness, but she lived in it.
I am trying to think of the positives of the situation, though as painful as they may be, they do exist. When one door closes, another opens, right?
I just hope things settle down for a while for my mother, she could use a break.
life for all of us should return to some form of normalcy and stability in due time, but until then, all we can do is bide our time and hold out hope.
Monday, July 28, 2014
I've got 99 problems thay can all be solved with money
"and the other one problem is how to get money."
hey, how about I make a monthly update here and there? Ok, so its been over a month since my last post but I don't care.
quite a lot has happened since I last said anything, so I don't know where to start. For my birthday I went to a Nerf gun fight with a handful of people, including the friend I made the other day, and things were going great until he broke his arm. Its pretty much healed now, and he's handled everything really well! We hang out a lot and watch anime and let's plays, which is awesome!
my job has been going... so so. I've been working pretty much nonstop and as a lead, it keeps me super busy. There are a lot of ups and downs, I have good days and bad, but I am still happy to be where I am.
my editor comes home some time next month and I could not be more excited!!! I know I only visited him for the 4th of July, but I still miss him like crazy.
this next month is going to be exciting and busy! They are FINALLY replacing the old and leaky decks above the larger bedrooms in the condos. They start Wednesday. The new construction company who will be working with us will be in contact starting on the first, and we have to have a plan of what we want in the condo by the 15th. Then they can start whatever work sometime after that, and maybe, just maybe it will be completed before my father returns in the late fall. Not to mention that my sister is leaving for California at the end of the month! And on top of that, one of my cousins is getting married!
things are really looking up, and I couldn't be happier!
lets hope I can make it through all this.
hey, how about I make a monthly update here and there? Ok, so its been over a month since my last post but I don't care.
quite a lot has happened since I last said anything, so I don't know where to start. For my birthday I went to a Nerf gun fight with a handful of people, including the friend I made the other day, and things were going great until he broke his arm. Its pretty much healed now, and he's handled everything really well! We hang out a lot and watch anime and let's plays, which is awesome!
my job has been going... so so. I've been working pretty much nonstop and as a lead, it keeps me super busy. There are a lot of ups and downs, I have good days and bad, but I am still happy to be where I am.
my editor comes home some time next month and I could not be more excited!!! I know I only visited him for the 4th of July, but I still miss him like crazy.
this next month is going to be exciting and busy! They are FINALLY replacing the old and leaky decks above the larger bedrooms in the condos. They start Wednesday. The new construction company who will be working with us will be in contact starting on the first, and we have to have a plan of what we want in the condo by the 15th. Then they can start whatever work sometime after that, and maybe, just maybe it will be completed before my father returns in the late fall. Not to mention that my sister is leaving for California at the end of the month! And on top of that, one of my cousins is getting married!
things are really looking up, and I couldn't be happier!
lets hope I can make it through all this.
Friday, June 20, 2014
Again and again and agin
So here we are, a full year later. So much has happened that I can barely remember where we were a year ago. Since it is something that I've rehashed over and over, I'll spare you the rant.
I'm 23 now, isn't that supposed to mean something? I'm not even sure. As long as I still exist in this limbo, I don't know if I'll be able to answer that.
However, if there is anything that I am certain of, it is how grateful I am for everything I have and for everyone I know. I could not be happier to have had been born to the most wonderful parents, who have help me so much all thoughout my life, and whom I am proud to consider friends. I am thankful to have an exciting sister, who though we have our differences, has been by my side for as long as I can remember. To have an irrlaceable collection of friends who might as well be family, who with ought, my life would be incredibally dull.
And I am eternally grateful to have a person such as my editor by my side, who, thoughout all our stuggles and strife, and despite having our lives torn apart, our relationship has only become stronger.
Throughout this year, I have had grand adventures, I have made terrible mistakes, I have changed and adapted to the ever changing world around me whether I wanted to or not. There is a lot I have to apologize for, and there are even more things I have to be proud of. All of these things would not have been possible if it weren't for the support of those around me.
With all my heart,
Thank you.
-Veronica.
(Ps, happy birthday to me!)
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
a CATastrophy
So there i was, i had laid down to take a short nap and Huxley was snuggling with me
i was only asleep for about an hour, when i woke up to my sister's dog jumping on my, trying to eat a bee which had flown into my room.
i only left the window open a little to let in some air, but apparently while i was napping, someone pushed the screen down. i saw Huxley attempting to go out, but her sister, Winny was on the other side.
i sat up and looked at her, asked her what she was doing and why she was outside, she mewed at me. i wasn't able to pull her back in, so i put on shoes and walked outside to close the window and retrieve Winny.
I also noticed that Huxley was the only cat left in the house. oh boy.
While on my way to get Winny, i saw Abbey over in the neighbor's shrubs. she wasn't going anywhere, so i let her be. I got Winny inside after some struggle, and went after Abbey, and she ran right for me, knowing she was doing something she wasn't supposed to. but rather than go to the door, she ran all the way to the window, twice, to be let in. i already sealed it, and since she refused to go through the door, i opened the screen back up so she could sneak back inside.
now the hard part, where was Rio. that boy is known for roaming far when he does go out, but i found him on the other side of the building with his head in some flowers.
we're all back inside and i am a little more alert now, at least my cats had fun today...
i was only asleep for about an hour, when i woke up to my sister's dog jumping on my, trying to eat a bee which had flown into my room.
i only left the window open a little to let in some air, but apparently while i was napping, someone pushed the screen down. i saw Huxley attempting to go out, but her sister, Winny was on the other side.
i sat up and looked at her, asked her what she was doing and why she was outside, she mewed at me. i wasn't able to pull her back in, so i put on shoes and walked outside to close the window and retrieve Winny.
I also noticed that Huxley was the only cat left in the house. oh boy.
While on my way to get Winny, i saw Abbey over in the neighbor's shrubs. she wasn't going anywhere, so i let her be. I got Winny inside after some struggle, and went after Abbey, and she ran right for me, knowing she was doing something she wasn't supposed to. but rather than go to the door, she ran all the way to the window, twice, to be let in. i already sealed it, and since she refused to go through the door, i opened the screen back up so she could sneak back inside.
now the hard part, where was Rio. that boy is known for roaming far when he does go out, but i found him on the other side of the building with his head in some flowers.
we're all back inside and i am a little more alert now, at least my cats had fun today...
Monday, June 9, 2014
heartache by the numbers
(no reason for the title, just a song stuck in my head).
so, last week, I was getting ready to have my usual Monday shift followed by an overnight shift. However, that morning around 6, I got a call from my work asking me to come in for the morning shift too. At first I declined because I had already worked the whole weekend and would go into overtime if I did pick it up, not to mention that meant I'd be working a full 24 hours, which is kinda illegal. However, they said they would try and cover one of those shifts, so I called them back and went into work. After all, I was about to have 5 days off, might as well make the best of it by working to death.
why do I torture myself like this?
it turned into a very long day, because no one else wanted to it was able to stay later or work extra, except for the person who called me in. Thanks to her, I was able to take 4 hours off to run a few errands, and while I was out I lost my necklace pendant. I found that out right before I had to go back for work, so I couldn't go back and look. I was so upset that I lost it. My editor gave that pendant to me for our first Christmas together, and I hadn't taken it off since.
I still never found it.
anyway, I proceeded to work for the next 11 hours or so, having a so so night. And by the time I went to bed I was ready to collapse. It was a stressful day, especially when my coworkers got on my nerves from saying some less than savory things about the residents.
so I spent the next two days floating and flailing in the pool, where I made myself so sunburnt that I actually got sick. Woo, go me.
I stayed in bed for another day or two, playing animal crossing until my arms fell off (it was worth it). I feel I got a lot accomplished in that little virtual world. After I got sick of playing, I cleaned up a little and used my last day off devoted to drawing out an idea that I thought of last Sunday.
the Achievement Hunter guys in the Attack on Titan uniforms, hell yeah!!! So far, I've only got one more to finish, but I won't be able to work on it until tomorrow night, probably. The amount of detail that is put into this uniform, specifically the 3 dimensional mobility gear they use for plot reasons, is so insanely hard to draw, but after I did it once I couldn't stop. I only intended to draw it twice, but I did it four times! (the other two get rifles, which are also impossible for me to draw). I'm just really happy with how they look, (and so is tumblr!)
the next few days are going to be interesting. I've got more training to do for work, and then another long work filled weekend. Oh, then next week is my birthday (and the one year anniversary of this blog). Where does the time go?
at least I get to visit my editor at the start of next month. I can't wait.
so, last week, I was getting ready to have my usual Monday shift followed by an overnight shift. However, that morning around 6, I got a call from my work asking me to come in for the morning shift too. At first I declined because I had already worked the whole weekend and would go into overtime if I did pick it up, not to mention that meant I'd be working a full 24 hours, which is kinda illegal. However, they said they would try and cover one of those shifts, so I called them back and went into work. After all, I was about to have 5 days off, might as well make the best of it by working to death.
why do I torture myself like this?
it turned into a very long day, because no one else wanted to it was able to stay later or work extra, except for the person who called me in. Thanks to her, I was able to take 4 hours off to run a few errands, and while I was out I lost my necklace pendant. I found that out right before I had to go back for work, so I couldn't go back and look. I was so upset that I lost it. My editor gave that pendant to me for our first Christmas together, and I hadn't taken it off since.
I still never found it.
anyway, I proceeded to work for the next 11 hours or so, having a so so night. And by the time I went to bed I was ready to collapse. It was a stressful day, especially when my coworkers got on my nerves from saying some less than savory things about the residents.
so I spent the next two days floating and flailing in the pool, where I made myself so sunburnt that I actually got sick. Woo, go me.
I stayed in bed for another day or two, playing animal crossing until my arms fell off (it was worth it). I feel I got a lot accomplished in that little virtual world. After I got sick of playing, I cleaned up a little and used my last day off devoted to drawing out an idea that I thought of last Sunday.
the Achievement Hunter guys in the Attack on Titan uniforms, hell yeah!!! So far, I've only got one more to finish, but I won't be able to work on it until tomorrow night, probably. The amount of detail that is put into this uniform, specifically the 3 dimensional mobility gear they use for plot reasons, is so insanely hard to draw, but after I did it once I couldn't stop. I only intended to draw it twice, but I did it four times! (the other two get rifles, which are also impossible for me to draw). I'm just really happy with how they look, (and so is tumblr!)
the next few days are going to be interesting. I've got more training to do for work, and then another long work filled weekend. Oh, then next week is my birthday (and the one year anniversary of this blog). Where does the time go?
at least I get to visit my editor at the start of next month. I can't wait.
Sunday, June 1, 2014
caught
maybe its because the details of my situation, but I'm finding my watching shows like "house hunters" and whatnot a lot more than usual. Its gotten to the point where I stopped myself and asked"since when did I become my mom?"
I long for the day when I will have my home back, and its not like its a secret, its all I talk about. I've got a brilliant plan for how I want to arrange everything and my editor is completely on board with all of my ideas, as long as he can display the authentic recreation of roman armor he plans to get. (don't ask.)
its nice to day dream, but I'm ready for life to return to some form of stable, because I'm ready to settle down. Then I can save up money for adventures! Hahaha!
since when did I become old?
I long for the day when I will have my home back, and its not like its a secret, its all I talk about. I've got a brilliant plan for how I want to arrange everything and my editor is completely on board with all of my ideas, as long as he can display the authentic recreation of roman armor he plans to get. (don't ask.)
its nice to day dream, but I'm ready for life to return to some form of stable, because I'm ready to settle down. Then I can save up money for adventures! Hahaha!
since when did I become old?
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