Oh? It's you. It's been a long time, how have you been?

First of all, oh my god I am old!

Second, I have just had the second greatest weekend of this past year.

And third, things haven't been this amazing in a long time and I am loving every minute of it.

Is it really possible to have been so busy with everything and it still seems like nothing really has happened? Over the last year I have barely said a word on here and yet I still feel like I don't have that much to say, which is a total lie.

Did you know I completely switched to night shifts last year? It sucks a whole lot and I never want to give them up! I complain a lot but in all honesty I really love my job, I even got employee of the month for July! Go me!

I know I should really get back to school and finish up but if I go I am almost tempted to immerse myself completely in animation instead of psych, but I really shouldn't wait. Though working nights has killed my brain and really hurts if I have to be up early in the morning. I am really ashamed of myself for not being as productive as I was last summer, especially after I got a new desktop, and my editor gave me a brand new tablet and drawing program, which I have only used once in the wake of the loss of Monty Oum. 

And since the conversation is headed that way, let me tell you about my relations with the people of Rooster Teeth. Well, I don't really have any, but in February my editor and I went to their "Video Game Concert" called "Let's Play Live" which was the best weekend I have had this year. While there, I was interviewed and asked to talk about what RT means to me and what sets them apart from other big named YouTube celebrities. They really liked my answer so you could imagine my excitement when I saw my stupid face and green hair in their documentary that they made about Let's Play Live. It premiered at their convention, RTX, yesterday, and we are currently flying home from it. My editor and I had so much fun over the weekend it was incredible, we made a lot of friends just at the airport before the convention and many more at it. I will definitely be going again next year. 

The day before my birthday in June, my parents finally made it to Colorado and began the stressful process of moving, then a month of house hunting, and then moving again. It was a lot of work but they are settled and close by so I couldn't be happier (and neither could they).

It's been about six months since we moved back into our home, and life is wonderful. It's warm and cosy and OURS! Also it's messy, but that's to be expected. We actually have a perfect set up, especially in our office. A nice long desk for both of us to work (or more like procrastinate and play around on), somehow still not enough bookshelves but we were able to display all our books and that makes me very happy. They cats are all loving it too. Every time I come home from work at like, 6:30, Huxley is in the window watching for me, and when she sees me she sounds the alarm (meows) and runs to the door. The other cats follow me around too, and when I get in bed Rio is usually already hogging my pillow and Abbey has to stand on all my internal organs and groom me because I guess I am incredibly gross when I come home (I'm not). Darwin minds her own business but lately she will erupt out of nowhere into the most aggressively cuddly ball of fur, and I love every minute of it. 

Let's see, should I now talk about all the games and shows I've seen and am now obsessed with? Well, I don't have to but I absolutely must make a mention of the big 3, "Over the Garden Wall," which is about an hour of the most amazing cartoon to come out this decade (it's kinda dark), "Gravity Falls," which is an ongoing series of supernatural events in a small Oregon town and then gets very deep, and finally my favorite, "Steven Universe," which is like a magical girl anime done as a cartoon and with all the crying and emotional pain that you could ever want, while still being the most light hearted and upbeat story of all time. Seriously, western animation finally got good again! I will eventually get my parents to at least see "Over the Garden Wall," since it's something they would really appreciate. But for all y'all normal people, go watch all of them, DO IT!!!

I can't think of much else that really has happened. I've spent a lot more of my time working than I wanted to, did a little traveling (we went to Vegas last month), my editor worked as a caregiver for a good friend of the family and now works at a mineral shop (he is so happy), and he also will be returning to school in a few weeks. Things are really looking up and up and up. 

As for me, I can't promise that I'll pick up writing regularly again (not a day goes by without me thinking abut it I just never do it). But we'll see where things go from here.  

At the Ends of Infinity

It has been eighteen months, to the day, since my editor and I (as well as our roommate at the time) were washed out of our home. Eighteen of the simultaneously best and worst months of my entire life. I was doing nothing but living day to day, week to week, waiting for the next significant date to pass by. Deadlines came and went, as did holidays and vacations, weeks of work, and anything else that I could think of. I have seen so many people come and go, I have experienced great joy and great sorrow, both loss and gain. I have done my best to stick it through and I have conquered the majority of the obsticals thrown in my way. Everything was a combination of " _ will be able to _ as soon as _ happens in the next _ days/weeks." As my editor put it, everything we needed to happen was perpetually two weeks in the future.

But it's all over now. 

This past weekend, I flew out to visit my parents for my father's retirement. He had retuned from overseas back in November and this was the mark of his end of service in the military. It was an incredibly emotional day and an amazing ceremony. Afterwords we went out to lunch in the Bay Area and as we are parking I received a phone call from the gentleman in charge of the construction company. In short, he said "everything is finished. Come get your keys!" Which was  exactly what expecting to hear after seeing the company adding final touches over the previous weeks. I couldn't be more excited. However this meant that the upcoming week was probably going to kill me (and it pretty much is) because I have to empty the condo and garage and arrange everything. 

Fast forward to now, as it marks the first night (morning, technically since I work overnight and sleep in the morning) that I was able to sleep in my home again. My editor, two former roommates, another friend, and myself have all been working diligently since Monday to get everything moved in and put together. We have made excellent progress but we still have a long way to go. When we finished dragging all the furniture in to the bedroom it meant that we could bring all the cats over, and they were very unsure of this prospect at first but now that they have been there for a whole day they act like they've been there the whole time. I've been slowly running out of energy today but I did at least make my goal of getting the bathroom 90% done, at least to the point where I could shower, and I did (and it was the best thing ever). Every day that I have been working on the condo, I have had to work the night of, and that will continue until it is finished, although I do get ONE day off this week, it really won't feel like it, since it is my goal to be 99.9% moved in by mine and my editor's four year annaversary next Thursday. (This has been a busy month, believe me). I can expect my newly retired father who has a lot more free time now a days to be driving in this weekend with a trailer full of more stuff (to store, mostly), including some bookshelves from my mother which I will combine with my remaining shelves to contain all of my manga in my fabulous new office. (Wow, that was a run-on sentence if I ever wrote one). 

I am more than ready to complete this chapter of my life, ending this perpetual limbo I have been stuck in, and crack open a new chapter, one that, I hope, will be filled with less complaining and more "look what I made today!" I'm ready to get creative again, to be social again, to be inviting again.

I AM READY TO LIVE AGAIN.

On that day we received a grim reminder...

about a year ago today was the day when we were washed out of our home. That morning, I vividly remember being ankle deep in water, standing in my living room, trying to do anything to save my house, though it was all for not. Who knew that three days of relatively nonstop rain would end up causing so much damage and despair for so many people?


well, here we are again. It has been one hell of a year and the nightmare may not be completely over, since even now we are still living in limbo.


it was odd that all of today it was pretty much misty and drizzling. It was a very cold day, and there is even a possibility of snow sometimes in the morning. To be honest, I loved the weather today.


I don't want to forever be weary of storms or large amounts of rain. I don't completely trust the weather, but its not something that activity goes out of it's way to cause destruction. It just does what it does.


I look forward to seeing what will happen next, and I still can't wait to have a home again, or at least live in a place that has more than just concrete floors.

I thought that pain and truth were things that really mattered

what happened to make things come to this? Out if everything that has happened within the last year, o wasn't expecting to end up here, though it wasn't a surprise and I had time to plan.

within the last two months, we have lost two of our dear family pets. Their age and health did not leave them in the best condition, but they held on as long as they could.

on the other hand, my mother has had to see the frontlines of this disaster and has had to face it by herself. If I was able, I would love nothing more than to be close to her to help her through this emotionally taxing process. Even with the wonderful support she has been receiving from her friends, she still could use just the extra human to help out around the house.

she often compared what it was like dealing with two sickly cats to my work. However, since she was dealing with it at home, it was something that was around her constantly. I get the chance to go home and walk away from the stress and sadness, but she lived in it.

I am trying to think of the positives of the situation, though as painful as they may be, they do exist. When one door closes, another opens, right?

I just hope things settle down for a while for my mother, she could use a break.

life for all of us should return to some form of normalcy and stability in due time, but until then, all we can do is bide our time and hold out hope.

I've got 99 problems thay can all be solved with money

"and the other one problem is how to get money."



hey, how about I make a monthly update here and there? Ok, so its been over a month since my last post but I don't care.

quite a lot has happened since I last said anything, so I don't know where to start. For my birthday I went to a Nerf gun fight with a handful of people, including the friend I made the other day, and things were going great until he broke his arm. Its pretty much healed now, and he's handled everything really well! We hang out a lot and watch anime and let's plays, which is awesome!

my job has been going... so so. I've been working pretty much nonstop and as a lead, it keeps me super busy. There are a lot of ups and downs, I have good days and bad, but I am still happy to be where I am.

my editor comes home some time next month and I could not be more excited!!! I know I only visited him for the 4th of July, but I still miss him like crazy.

this next month is going to be exciting and busy! They are FINALLY replacing the old and leaky decks above the larger bedrooms in the condos. They start Wednesday. The new construction company who will be working with us will be in contact starting on the first, and we have to have a plan of what we want in the condo by the 15th. Then they can start whatever work sometime after that, and maybe, just maybe it will be completed before my father returns in the late fall. Not to mention that my sister is leaving for California at the end of the month! And on top of that, one of my cousins is getting married!

things are really looking up, and I couldn't be happier!

lets hope I can make it through all this.

Again and again and agin

So here we are, a full year later. So much has happened that I can barely remember where we were a year ago. Since it is something that I've rehashed over and over, I'll spare you the rant.

I'm 23 now, isn't that supposed to mean something? I'm not even sure. As long as I still exist in this limbo, I don't know if I'll be able to answer that. 

However, if there is anything that I am certain of, it is how grateful I am for everything I have and for everyone I know. I could not be happier to have had been born to the most wonderful parents, who have help me so much all thoughout my life, and whom I am proud to consider friends. I am thankful to have an exciting sister, who though we have our differences, has been by my side for as long as I can remember. To have an irrlaceable collection of friends who might as well be family, who with ought, my life would be incredibally dull. 

And I am eternally grateful to have a person such as my editor by my side, who, thoughout all our stuggles and strife, and despite having our lives torn apart, our relationship has only become stronger.

Throughout this year, I have had grand adventures, I have made terrible mistakes, I have changed and adapted to the ever changing world around me whether I wanted to or not. There is a lot I have to apologize for, and there are even more things I have to be proud of. All of these things would not have been possible if it weren't for the support of those around me. 

With all my heart, 

Thank you.

-Veronica. 

(Ps, happy birthday to me!)

a CATastrophy

So there i was, i had laid down to take a short nap and Huxley was snuggling with me
i was only asleep for about an hour, when i woke up to my sister's dog jumping on my, trying to eat a bee which had flown into my room.
i only left the window open a little to let in some air, but apparently while i was napping, someone pushed the screen down. i saw Huxley attempting to go out, but her sister, Winny was on the other side.
i sat up and looked at her, asked her what she was doing and why she was outside, she mewed at me. i wasn't able to pull her back in, so i put on shoes and walked outside to close the window and retrieve Winny.
I also noticed that Huxley was the only cat left in the house. oh boy.

While on my way to get Winny, i saw Abbey over in the neighbor's shrubs. she wasn't going anywhere, so i let her be. I got Winny inside after some struggle, and went after Abbey, and she ran right for me, knowing she was doing something she wasn't supposed to. but rather than go to the door, she ran all the way to the window, twice, to be let in. i already sealed it, and since she refused to go through the door, i opened the screen back up so she could sneak back inside.

now the hard part, where was Rio. that boy is known for roaming far when he does go out, but i found him on the other side of the building with his head in some flowers.

we're all back inside and i am a little more alert now, at least my cats had fun today...