Here I Stand, and Here I'll Stay

I'm having a hard time remembering whether or not I signed up for any more morning shifts. . . I'm pretty sure I didn't, because I definitely don't want to be awake at this time of the day. I know I picked up an overnight on Valentines day, but that's it.

it's times like these that I want to go back in time and slap my former self for agreeing to work so much. However, my future self would then come back in time and hit me because I need the money. Funny how that works.

but seriously, when I looked at my alarm this morning, I nearly cried. I didn't want to be awake, especially since I had only been asleep for four hours. I chose to shower before I went to sleep because I desperately needed it, and if I showered in the morning, that means I would have had to wake up earlier.

I really ought to go eat something, or at least drink some coffee. Right now I'm just counting down until I'm off work. I still have homework to do after all.

Today For You, Tomorrow For Me

why do I keep doing this to myself? I agreed to work the early morning shift for both today and tomorrow, and yesterday, someone asked me to work their evening shift. Of course I said yes, and I knew I would regret saying it, but I really need to work as much as possible. I'm absolutely exhausted, and I want to get off my feet for a while. But alas, the shift is not over. I've been here since 5am and I was lucky enough to sneak away for an hour and a half to go buy fish food. I'm off at 11pm, but tomorrow I get to repeat it all. Ok, not all of it, but the first half.

I got a last minute invite to a birthday party, so my plans of switching to work in the evening are gone, and instead I'm going to have a social life!!! Yay!

I have to remember to make time to do all my school work, which I am not looking forward to, but it has to be done. I never did finish my Japanese homework from the other day, so I gotta do that.

I was seriously considering skipping class because I was so tired, but I went away. Though, I did manage to go to bed at 8pm, thought tonight I won't be so lucky.

if I have time, I'll write something. But until then. . .

I'm Mr. White Christmas, I'm Mr. Snow

I fought with the world this morning until it forced me out of bed around 11 this morning, to which I looked at the thermostat and saw that it was a lovely 58 degrees. . . Inside the house. Right now, its a couple degrees below freezing, and boy does it feel like it.

I'm working two shifts tonight, evening and overnight, then I get to go to school. I'm not going to get any sleep until possibly Saturday night, because I work at 5am on Friday and Saturday. I'm thrilled, as you can see. My only goal is to try and get some homework done and if not, I've got some programs I can watch to keep me awake.

as I'm working on the assignment that is due tonight, I'm realizing just how much I miss my editor. I need him around to help me with my homework. Now I have to do it all by myself and get him to review it later, and that just isn't as fun.

the weather channel keeps telling me that its just cloudy and cold, even though it was mist-snowing all day until now. Its honestly too cold to snow. However, my editor said that it was snowing down where he is, so they pretty much shut the whole town down. Hooray, I guess.

I'm going to try and get as much done as I can tonight, and if I get too cold, I know where they keep the blankets.

we're the ones going. . .

About three and a half years ago, I spent five weeks away from my home while I attended management training. Though the training was in a place I lived as a child, it was a very lonely experience.

last night, I was reminded of how I felt back then. Maybe it was the music I was listening to, or maybe it was the weather, but I couldn't help but be consumed by nostalgia. I don't want the next six months to be a repeat of those days. It wasn't so bad, but everyday I was waiting for the next to hurry up until it was time to leave. I played Homecoming by Green Day a lot.

though, I am glad I'm at least in my own home (of sorts), at least with my pets. Five weeks with no kitties is too long. I can barely go five days without some kitty belly.

right. Didn't accomplish anything today. Busy tomorrow. Bedtime.

What time is it?

so in my editor's absence, I have sought the comfort of a show that I had been putting off watching. I am familiar with the producers and have hear a lot of good things about it, so I finally checked it out for myself. And which show am I talking about? Why, I'm talking about Adventure Time!

It doesn't have that much direction but its really enjoyable. The universe is well set up and I am genuinely entertained by it. Its also fun how many voice actors I recognize, including George Takei. So, props for that!

but you may be saying, why, adventure time is a kids show, and to which I reply, so is my little pony friendship is magic, and it has a larger adult fanbase than it's childrens fanbase. So there.

in all seriousness, I feel it is perfectly normal for non-kids to enjoy kids shows. I mean, unless you are really invested in the story line of baby Einstein or something, don't see anything wrong with it. These are shows written for kids by adults, but there isn't any rules against other age groups liking them. Its something I'd like to call as an "all age" show.

for example, shows like South Park are directed towards an adult audience, while shows like the Simpsons have adult themes, but can still be enjoyed by the younger crowd. Adventure Time and My Little Pony are no different, only their focus is towards kids but they also have mature elements and themes. You know, for learning and stuff.

I know I said all this poorly, but ultimately what I'm trying to say is that I find no shame in watching and enjoying cartoons, and I will never be ashamed of it. Besides, its no different than an adult getting excited for the next Disney movie. . .

#nostalgia

Don't want to be all by myself

when my mom first started her blog, it was all about her and my father's adventures with their "park" and with all their animals, or something like that. Right around the end of last April (I think), my dad went off to who knows where for a year long deployment (which is quickly turning into a year+ deployment). I was the day before or the day of (I forget) his departure when I really started reading her blog. The first thing I read was how she didn't want him to leave and how she really loves him. I had to stop at that point because I was at work and that was not the place to be crying my eyes out.

it was an odd thing to realize, knowing how much my parents do care about each other, regardless of how often they fought when I was younger. They have a very strong relationship and it has taught me that things are worth working through the hardships because it makes the good parts that much better. It makes me feel a bit better, knowing that they didn't just stay together for mine and my sister's sake, but for their own sakes as well.

about an hour before I had to go to work, my editor left for his 6 month long internship. Its going to be lonely without him around. It won't be nearly as bad as what my mom has been going through with my dad gone, but I sympathize and understand her feelings. We spent last night cleaning up what we could and finished packing up his truck this morning.

neither of us wanted to leave the other, but we keep having to tell ourselves that this is for the best. This is a chance for both of us to take a step back and take a good look at our lives and our relationship. We're been through a lot already, so this should be easy, right?

I just hope the weather stays clear while he's on the road.

(link to my moms blog because reasons)
http://scenesfromsmithpark.blogspot.com/?m=1

go read ALL OF IT

what are you waiting for?

The snow has set my editor's departure back by at least a day. Which is good because that means he can clean my room while at work. #whatgoodboyfriendsarefor

I'm happy I get to stay with him for a little longer, especially since we accomplished nothing in our to list yesterday. I really wish I could motivate myself to do something besides watch YouTube, but I just get so tired. If we aren't able to wake up early, we might as well stay up and clean, like we intended to last night.

a lot of you are probably telling me to not worry about cleaning and spend time with him, and the rest of you are probably telling me I should have cleaned earlier, to which I respond with a "ppppttttttthhhhhhbbbbbbbbb."

when its all cold and snowy like this, I don't want to do much of anything, especially if it requires pants.

at least my editor is doing laundry. That will clear up a lot of the clutter in ny room...