On March 19, 2011, my relationship with my editor began. We've been through a lot since then, but I wanted to take a quick moment on the five days leading to our official anniversary by saying one thing about my editor that l love. (Wow, that was a run on sentence. Sorry.)
There is nothing in this world that is untouched by the endless march of time.
Change is something that is both expected and yet surprising when it happens, but even the smallest moments in life may end up having a large effect on people. From the moment I met you there was a change in my life. I used to be someone who was so focused on regaining the past I didn't know what to do with the future when I was faced with it. I know I wasn't exactly the best kind of person and the more I think about it, the more I realized that all I did was hurt people, even if I didn't mean to. When I met you, we were planning on just being roommates. I was told there was this person who was intending to go to the same college I was intending on going to and would need a place to stay. I didn't care as long as I didn't have to live with another girl. We spoke a few words with one another but it wasn't until Christmas of 2010 when we actually met face to face. We both had the same reaction to each other which was something along the lines of "oh god you're cute!"
We got to know each other a little better over the next few months and little by little we were changing. After we started dating we changed more and more, especially after we started living together (see previous post for reference). When we had to face our problems head on, it took a lot of strength to overcome a lot of those things, but we did it together. However no one goes through this life unchanged by our experiences. The more unpleasant things we experienced had a lasting effect, though it was not entirely bad, and we both changed into much better people because of those thing. I have always been the kind of person who is proud of their scars and whatnot, I figured everyone was, but I was wrong. People who faced very different things in their pasts may not have been able to cope as well as I had and it took me a while to understand that, but thanks to you I did.
I used to be stubborn and unapologetic. Never give up, never surrender, but I leaned how important it is to be able to say "I'm sorry" or that "I was wrong," which though I am typically right about things, it's important to be able to say when you're not. That's something I learned from you. Something that means the world to me is that after an argument, you always come to me and ask "are we ok?" It's something like that that may seem so small but helps us come back together and remember what's really important, which is each other.
You are definitely not the same person I knew five years ago, let alone a few weeks ago. You have changed so much over the years it honestly surprises me. People may make fun of me for being "motherly" but getting a chance to see you grow as a person has been one of my favorite parts about being with you. I'm so proud of your development and it makes me so happy to know that I've been a huge part of that. I can honestly say that over the years we both have changed a lot, we've changed each other and changed for each other. The journey of changed is never easy and it is very hard to change things once you are set in your ways but the constant evolution of our beings something that should always be strived for, especially if it's for the the best. The changes we've experienced have definitely made us better people, and that is a truth I will always stand by.
Thank you for changing with me.
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