I still don't know what I'm doing

shout out to the oatmeal for this one.

I have been up for at least two hours and I haven't accomplished anything. I've been moping around the house in my pajamas and my greatest accomplishment is that I managed to eat a bowl of Cheerios, which I shared with several felines.

I'm happy that I got so much cleaning done over the last few days, but I feel like I haven't actually done anything. My creative ideas are constantly flowing, but nothing has come of it. I have tried repeatedly to draw a few pictures on my computer, but I keep messing up and haven't touched them since. In this way, I am glad school is starting, since it will give me something to procrastinate over.

I want to keep playing all the games and reading all the things, but all I seem to do is wander to YouTube and waste time doing whatever. And when I get bored, I just walk around and go right back to the computer when I'm done.

but right now I don't even want to do that. If anything, I just want to stay in bed. I want to sleep more, but I also ought to dismantle the Christmas tree.

I don't remember what time my parents are supposed to be back from their mandatory fun thing, but I know we have dinner around 5 at their friend's house. I really should at least go shower, or bathe, or something.

but even if I take a bath, I'll get bored quickly.

god I hate this feeling.