Fictional Representation of Emotions and Youthful Ambitions.

Today I'm going to talk about something a little close to home. Actually, close to home doesn't describe it right, because it is 'in my home' or at least, I'm my head. 

As an artist, its not uncommon for strange ideas and concepts to manifest themselves in different ways. For me, it is in my art that these 'beings' came to be. Let me explain. 

Back in my younger years, around 10th grade, I started trying out new drawing concepts and most of my works reflected my emotional state, and as a teenager, my emotional state was all over the place. Maybe it was the 'romantic troubles' that I got myself into that started it, or maybe it was the typical need for a 'darker' persona that almost every teenager gets. But after reading the famous manga by Clamp, Chobits, I was able to complete this 'inner me' and give her a name.

Freya. 

Fictional Representation of Emotions and Youthful Ambitions. (An accurate acronym for what she is).

After doing a little research and a lot of growing up, what Freya was to me then is completely different from how I consider her now. She hardly appears in my art anymore, mostly because I've dedicated most of my time to my story. However, when she does appear, it is usually with her new counterpart, Johan.

Journey Over Humanity And Nature. (The working acronym for him).

This 'persona' came about during my days in solitude. I had been watching the masterpiece knows as Monster (by Naoki Urasawa; its beautiful), and I was inspired by its main antagonist. This charismatic and brilliant character helped 'inspire' and 'awaken' another part of myself, which I was finally able to put on paper. Johan really became Freya's partner, and from that point on, I always drew them together.

The next year or so was quite and I pretty much had my life made out for me. A good friend of mine (who doesn't talk to me anymore) got me interested in Soul Eater (Atsushi Ohkubo). Now, I mentioned a little about it during my post about anime, and its concept of 'madness.' I did a lot of thinking, and in the process, I found this other. . . well, it's not a personal, more like a character at this point. . . But anyway, this is how Infinity came to be. Her name is a play on the character Zero from Code Geass. Mostly, when I draw her, actually, I don't really know, I just do. There's nothing to it, really. 

Finally, the last and most recent of the bunch is a currently unnamed 'persona.' She represents the more childish side of me (I guess). It's actually how I feel most comfortable, when I'm bothering my editor and rolling on the floor like a four year old. (Its too much fun not to). It's hopeful, cheerful, not really innocent, more like ignorant of the troubles of the adult world. Her inspiration was mostly from the type of relationship my editor and I have, and also the anime Clannad (go watch it and cry your hearts out!!!). That story of family, friendship, growing up and facing your childish past, understand and forgiveness and did I mention family? It's a great series, but mostly heart wrenching. 

The running names for her are:

Abbey (after my moosie (my fluffy cat) because she helps me feel all warm and fuzzy)

Makoto (the Japanese name meaning sincerity, also the 'human' name of Sailor Jupiter, who is my favorite).

Hope (I feel it's too generic)

Midori (Japanese for green, or maybe using another language's word for green)

And that's kind of it . . . 

These characters are ones that I use to describe how I feel or something deep in my life. None of them are me, but just a part of me, as I am a part of them. 

The four of them, Freya, Johan, Infinity, and Makoto (I guess). All with their respective 'colors'

(This isn't my favorite of my drawings of them, but its the only one I've really got.