Sorry to start this off with a downer, but five months ago, I received the news that my parents were separating. It took me a long time to process my feelings, and I still don't know how to handle it all. I've gone through many phases of sadness and anger and acceptance, then back to sadness and anger again. Depends on the day, really. And I've come to understand and know more and more about the things that happened before I could even begin to look outside my own universe, the more and more I feel conflicted. However, I feel it is time I speak up a little and at least let those around me know what I am going through, not that I ever really hid it, now I'm just using the Internet to talk.
As life progresses, we all gain friends, and we all lose friends. Human interpersonal relationships are hard to simplify because they are all so complex. Luckily, I have been fortunate enough to reconnect with many of my friends and gain a lot of new ones. I feel like I have a wonderful community and consider most of them to be family. However I know many others who are not as lucky as I and are currently engaged in turmoil with those who would be known as formerly close to them. It's not easy, especially to see it up close, but if there is anything I have learned from my own past, is that sometimes it is best for people to go their separate ways. Some need to have the hint spelled much more plainly if it is something they are resisting, especially if they are in denial about the circumstances that led to such a predicament, and I understand that too, since I was once in a similar situation. (Sorry)
Good news is that life goes on and things change as naturally as the seasons come and go. I think I will skip the excited nerd rant for tonight, but I want you all to know that I am ok, or at least I will be ok. I'm doing alright because of all of those whom I love and trust, to which I thank you. I am working hard and working on creating things again. I'm not giving up on fighting, I've only just begun.
Ok. I'll stop being introspective now. Back to memes.
